Never mind

That is what I keep telling myself.

Never mind. All that happens, all the sadness, anger that I am feeling does not matter. I should get used to it and being an adult, it does not matter. Must mature.

I will still feel discontented. Keep thinking why? Why must it be like this? Why must it be this way? Is it how the world function? Is it how things suppose to work? It is sad and I feel vulnerable. Unable to make differences, unable to change it...

Can I express myself? I think people will get bored and sick with me, keep complaining. And I hate myself being this way. It is ugly and disgusting. I am becoming those that I hate, yet this is the social way.

In the end, the best option will still be: telling myself never mind... never mind... that is how things work, nothing can be done.... Be contented with who you are..